by Navinn Rajendran
29 years I have been a Malaysian Indian. I have never felt
distressed as I feel right now. I never wanted to feel such but here I am,
feeling why I were born a Malaysian Indian. I have live amongst the lowest
environment and the highest. I know how it feels like to be a makkeh and also
to have standard and I am totally aware of how much both worlds have their own
battles. I am tired of how much another Indian wants to take advantage of every
single thing available. Some might call it smartness. I would call it Etche
Putthi (Low Mentality). Whom I know matters more then who I am. How I do
matters more then what has to be done. Bank balance matters more than far
sightedness.
I don’t fear breaking in anymore. I fear burglar raping my
sister. If there were three alleys and each had a group of Indians, Malays and
Chinese, any Indian girl would feel safe walking in any of the alleys except
the Indian one. We fear telling our parents who we love and we are willing to
get hitched over a good deal. Vaada Vaadi is now a norm where Vannge Poonge is
ridiculed. No matter how liberal Malays are, they never gave up Baju Melayu and
Baju Kurung. We go to temples with T Shirts and Jeans forgetting Saree and
Veshti. We openly say Punde Sunni when back then you would get a slap from a
stranger for being vulgar. We suicide over love failures when singles mothers
used to raise 5 kids single handedly after losing hope on their alcoholic
husband.
We go to universities and graduate to eventually send our
parent to Old Folks home. We get agitated when someone labels us Keling
forgetting it was this Keling that has soared in many sectors not as an Indian
but Malaysian. Police blocks are a joke for many policeman’s when they ask if
I’m a Bangladeshi or Indian. Deepavali is no more about oil bathing and open
house. It’s about how many crates of beer and cartons of liquor. Hindu traders
are not ashamed when they sell joystick with deity’s pictures on it which
eventually ends up in the dustbin. We are fine with slashing and gang wars.
Politicians? I can count how many are actually a leader and how many want to
simply fill their pockets. Many of my sister out there have to trade their the
dignity to raise up the ranks. Sex is a currency these days.
Men would want to fuck every single women out there, but
lock their sisters in their house. Sigh. What we have become? Where has the
thought that every other child is also our own drowned? It is indeed a
competitive world. I agree. But living in a community that eats its own?
Disgrace. Indians regards serving food to others as one of the highest service.
How is it that some restaurants cheats and carries forward food and serves food
they wouldn’t serve their family for others. Where are the institutes that
researches the Indian culture and tradition? How protected is our history and
monuments? What are the functions of temples today? With the political support
divided in half in this country, who is my leader? Where is my voice?
Where is my Malaysian Indian owned bank? Where is my
Malaysian Indian owned English newspaper? Where are the tech brains that are
being exported? Where have the family values vanished? Where is the common
unity which is indeed the base word for community? How do you expect me to
stand proud when my own kind cheapskates my talent? Instead of carrying hope
you make me feel carrying balls are much better. Where are the old school
gangsters that used to have values and were not feared by people? As said, I am
a Makkeh. I know what I’m saying right now. Being frustrated is one thing,
being pissed off is another. You. Yes you who is reading this. You pushed the
future right to its edge. You cornered our future. Right now we have nothing to
lose because we have already lost it. You made us start all over again.
The most dangerous person on earth is the one person whom
has nothing to lose. May your bank balance save you. Nandri.
Well said. Made me think to the core.
ReplyDeleteWell said. Made me think to the core.
ReplyDeleteI'm Sad to read this, I fell you are narrow minded. 1. Your statement indirectly telling us that you are regretted to be borned as Indian. You should be thankful to your parent regardless who they are 2. You should start calling yourself Malaysian and stop differentiate your race as Malaysian India. You yourself who actually creating the gap in society. 3. Everyone in this country have the opportunity to study and be who they want to be.
ReplyDeleteIf you want to have a lot of money be a business man, if you want to be a great leader and change your surroundings Nd help the poor, be a politician but make sure be good politician
I agreed many of our Indians brothers n sisters sidelined by the government n neglected n discriminated by our fellow Malay n Chinese Malaysian. ....I sincerely hope Indians will raise to the occasion as many successful Indians around the world did......all Indians must unite. ...
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